I'm back, and twice as dedicated

All right guys, I'm back and man it feels good. I've just broken up with my LTR of 17 months and even though I may miss her, and it feels kinda shitty, it was the right thing to do. I was not there for her anymore, not mentally anyway.

It all began a few months back, when she asked me the hardest question anyone can ever ask their LTR...."why don't you want to sleep with me anymore?"

That's where it started, the doubts....the mixed feelings. Why didn't I want to sleep with her anymore?

Things had changed, I started going over my actions the past months and I could see that there had been something wrong from the start. I wasn't Cro anymore, I was this guy, this weak pathetic guy stuck in a LTR that was doomed from the start.
My mistake? I got stuck in the comfort role I created originally when gaming this foxy chick, and she fell in love with me.

I thought I loved her. Still not sure if I didn't. I guess it's one of those things I'll never fully understand.

I started slipping back out of that role and slowly started changing into the old me again, I started hanging out with old friends, flirting with women that crossed my path. Partying, and leaving her at home. From there, things got worse. She started closing herself off, probably to save herself the hurt from what was eventually to come to pass.

The final straw was a week and a half ago, when I went out and took some freshmen to a party, greeting them to the fold and I found myself gaming.
Yes, I found myself gaming. I never started, but all off a sudden I was there. Running old gambits, doing jealousy plotlines, kinoing and eventually making out with one of the girls.

It was a wake up call. I did the right thing and broke up with her. I think we both knew it was coming, but kept putting it off.
That leads me to this moment, this moment of clarity when I realized that I am not this pathetic LTR guy. I'm Cro, I'm a pickup practitioner. And I'm back

I've been out in the field all week, gotten 3 solid numbers, set up day2 with all of them. Made out with one amazing girl, and got a few kisses.

I feel great being back, and I will share my return to the field here with you guys, my reports and my experiences.

Sarge on!